Looking For Love - Search No Longer.

Lord In You I`ve Got Victory.

This Song Truly Speaks To My Spirit, I Hope It Does The Same For You. ^_^

Artist: Smokie Norful
Album: I Need You Now
Song: I Need You Now

Not a second
Or another minute
Not an hour
Or another day

But at this moment with my arms outstretched
I need you to make a way
As you’ve done so many times before
Through window or an open door

I stretch my hands to you
Come rescue me
I need you…
Right away

I need you now
I need you now
I need you now
I need you now

Not another second
Or another minute
Not another hour of another day
But Lord I need you right away

If I never needed you before
To show up and restore
All of the faith that I let slip
While I was yet searching the world for more

The true best friend I have indeed
You’re my best friend I know indeed
I stretch my hands to thee
Come rescue me
I need you right away

The agony of being alone
The fear of doing things on my own
The test and trials that come to make me strong
The feelings of guilt, hurt, shame, and defeat
The ways of trials that feed upon me
But to know Lord that in you I’ve got victory

I need you now, Lord, I need you now (Oh, woo, woo)
I need you right now, right now, right now
I need you now

Oh not another second
Not another minute, Lord
Can’t wait another day (oh…)
Oh Lord, please make a way
Oh Lord, Oh Lord, Mmmmm, Yeah

Right As Rain.

Leave Bad Feeling

Collab. With None Other Than The Best Friend:

Leave bad feeling. Go Away.!

Go away and never come back,

Not even another day.

No, you`re not talking yourself back in today.

I`m too busy with this other feeling.

This what do they call it, happiness.

This joy.

No, you can`t come back tomorrow.

Nope.

Not that day either.

So just stay away.

No you can`t both him neither,

We sharing this, what do they call it, happiness.

Yeah.

So long.

Don`t come back no mo`.

Leave bad feeling. Go Away.!
Go away and never come back,
Not even another day.

another day never come back
because I'll be with my friends
Laughter and Great Moments
Haven't you noticed they're more fun

and I don't want you back
I don't need you back
You never were my friend
more like that man, from Shakespeare
So et tu Brute, scoot
go away and never come back

be old school, like jack
I need new, because even if change is the only thing constant in this world
I need a friend that'll be more constant that time passed
That's why I found my presence

This is my gift for Happiness and joy
and I think they enjoy it more than you
So never come back, not even another day

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Did I complete the challenge.??

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Blogging.

It is said that when you ask you shall receive.
So I asked for this aching to cease.
For these tears to be dried.
I asked for peace.

So I asked.
Then I received.

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I`m really excited about the future. All the things I`m gonna experience. I can`t wait.! But I have to, grrr. I`m interested in meeting all the people I`m gonna meet. All the words I`m gonna combine. I keep daydreaming about all of this. You know the feeling you used to get when summer break was over & you were going back to school & you were getting all your supplies & all that good stuff [ at least I got excited by that stuff ]., that`s how I feel when I think about the future. The anticipation. I`m just so INTRIGUED [ sexy word ] by the future. I`m hopeful. I`m grateful.

Ah.

Life has a very interesting way of changing course. It`s crazy to just sit back & watch it all unfold. I have to admit, my life is not boring right now. When I think about it, it never really is. I think I use "boring" as an excuse to take pictures. Lol. Life is one big walking mystery & Lord KNOWS I love a good mystery. I think watching it unfold keeps me going. Because I can never stand walking away from a mystery until I see the solution revealed. Even if the solution isn`t satisfying to my liking I have to see that final result.

Sigh

Sighs seem to really be helpful lately. Sometimes you need to take that extra breathe before you can continue. . .whatever it is that you need to continue.

I recently experienced what seems like a loss. . .but I think it`s been more of a gain. . .

*text break*

Like I was saying before I was INTERRUPTED [ you green ], I feel like I lost such a HUGE part of my life. I know it was for the BETTER but I`m struggling to grasp this concept. How one minute I was resting in loving arms & the next I`m letting & being let go. But one thing is for sure I don`t regret anything. Because I know that all though life may take its twist & turns, things will end on the right course. I truly believe that. I have to.

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I love you.
So I let you go.

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*Edit*

What A Wonderful, Merciful God.
= ]


-Eb

|R.I.P. Lothar Spang - The gift of writing is so much more than a gift. Thank You.|

Love Poems (1)

Sometimes I wish I could write love poems for you.

I wish I could color the sky red for you.

Only so that when it rains it'll turn pink.

And when it does we'd already have cancer on the phone.

She'll be asking why she's out of business.

And all I'll tell her it's because I want to love you longer.

And I don't want anyone or anything to take you away.

I want to be your last gift on Christmas,

Or maybe your only gift on Christmas.

I want to learn to speak languages so I can learn to love you,

even in dialects you'll never understand.

But that'll just show you how much I care.

That I opened my memory to house thoughts of you.

I will open my door so you can close it on your way in.

I am what I want you to be, my other half.

So here take my rib and cook it in the right temperature.

Maybe, you'll just melt my heart, again.

Just like you did when I met you.

Maybe you will when I meet you.

Yes, Maybe.

So let me love you.

Even if I can't write a love poem for you.

Free Write. (2)

I've never been one to come up with clever metaphors..
&i don`t use too many of those big beautiful words..
Does supercalifragilisticexpyalidocious count.?
I just speak what I know and how I feel.
i write what comes to mind & how it comes to mind.
Thats all i know how to do.

Free Write.

We mustn`t be foolish & become jaded by our emotions.
We must first step back for but even a moment to see the clearer picture.

Emotions are good, but only when used wisely.

Good Mourning

Artist: India.Arie

Do do do
Do do do
Do do do do do do dooooooo [4x]

Good mourning silence
Good mourning to myself
Good mourning to the pain in the center of my chest
It's crazy how much I miss
a simple good mourning kiss
oh ohhhhh...

Good mourning independence or is it loneliness?
I know I said I wanted this but I have regrets
I pray for God's will to be done
The very next day you were gone
Oh Ohhhhhh

Good mourning to the harsh realities of life
and good mourning to the fact we're not husband and wife
We made a promise to stay
But destiny got in the way
oh ohhhhhhhh

Good mourning...

Good mourning acceptance
Good mourning inner strength
I'm loving every moment
even the strain

It's crazy how much I miss
a simple good mourning kiss
It's crazy how much I've missed
Now it's time for me to live
oh ohhhhhhhhhh

Good mourning...

Good mourning optimism
Good mourning to my faith
Good mourning to the beginning of a brand new day
I know that God's will be done
So I lay down my pain and I'm moving on
I know that God's will be done.
So it's a good mourning after all



This song coincides with how I`m feeling.

Dreams Mean Something.

These dreams are telling me something obviously.
Is it my true conscious speaking.?
Telling me that I`ve played the fool again.
Secretly they`re keeping me at the wayside.
Away from hurt & humiliation.
I don`t know whether who`s trap to fall into, reality or this dream world.
It`s like choosing the better of two evils.
Either chose leading to pain.
How can in one moments notice all feelings can change?
Everything you hope & wish for change.
One thing always comes to mind though:

"I Pray For God`s Will To Be Done, The Very Next Day You Were Gone."

These dreams have to be more than just dreams.
They feel like premonitions or truths of past times.
Like I`d been there.

I`m letting go.
Of the sadness.
Of the resentment.
Of the what-ifs.


-All this because of a dream...

The Moon

"Goodnight Moon"

I love the nights. The way the stars are my only company. And when I want to talk to them I can because they won't go anywhere until the morning. And that's when I go to sleep; in the morning, because that's when I stop living in reality and pretend it's my fantasy. My heaven on Earth, but where's my angels. One of them is working hard to make a future for me and my sisters but she needs a break so she can use her wings and FLY. The other one already FLEW and I'm happy she doesn't have to live on this Earth anymore. I wouldn't want her to hurt. So here I am enjoying my mornings even if it's the darkness that makes me feel more comfortable. I say Goodnight Moon because the sun is shinning...

Have you ever noticed how loud the sun is.?
Its presence always known.
& How quiet it is before it storms.?
It comes as smooth as a criminal.

Same place.
The only thing that's changed is the longitude & latitude.
Same hustle & bustle.
Same hustlers trying to push they're bustle.
Aint nothing new under the sun.
Even the faces remain the same

Piece Of Heaven.

I love the morning so much because its the beginning.
It represents renewal.
Its when the birds sing.
I think they like it too.
Morning gives me a chance to meditate and rejuvenate.
Its my favorite time to speak & hear from God.
Its reassurance that I can start fresh.
The morning time is the best...
I think its one of the closes things to Heaven.

BestFriend

If you don't have a BestFriend like mine...I'm sorry.

She was the last of her kind....oh well good luck.

You need to keep looking because I think she's dope...she cracks me up (sometimes).

Anyways...Thanks.

You're amazing and I wonder how a friendship like this even happened.

You still Green (#13).

But keep being you because I wouldn't want it any other way. (Maybe but I'm being Ungreen right now and Soft. So what...sue me.)

One.

Testing phone blog.

Thinking Out Loud.

I`m "letting go"-my new obsession-& no matter how much it pains me, I`m not gonna give in to the feeling`s I`ve been experiencing. I`m gonna be strong for me, because in reality I can only guarantee having ME in the long run. I understand that no matter how much I want something it may not go my way. In life you don`t get everything you want, but I know God will provide me EVERYTHING I need.

"The road to hell is paved with good intentions"

What does that mean exactly.? Is it that even the best attempts at making good of a situation, it can still end in disaster.? What do you think.? I can see this being applied to my situation.

Maybe things are changing to make it easier for me to:
Let go.
Perhaps move on.?
Could never turning back be an option.?

One thing that really frustrates me is that when I express my feelings sometimes is not met with the reaction I desire. . .the reaction I need. I want to feel that whatever I`m going through you understand. . .because I know when you`re "going through it" I more than understand. I feel the need to make it all better. I dont respond wordless & with weak console. Maybe it`s the mother-figure in me, feeling the need to make your pains go away even when I feel all hope is lost for me. I have the ability to shove my woes to the side & mend yours. As I write this I am discovering the answers that I`ve been searching to find. . .its weird. [ I guess that`s why I find comfort in writing, it heals my once open wounds ] I am discovering fully that it`s not possible for you to be there for me as I want you to be. So I`m going to discontinue running in the never ending circle I have been & FORGET about this. . .[ until I`m unoccupied again. . .of course. . . ] : /

Short Piece

This is something I want to give to her after I kiss her...

Love

She says,

"It sounds sweeter

When

It rolls from your lips"

And I thought,

"How could she know

What

Sweet is

If she's never kissed herself"

1year:4months:4days:14hours | ♡

I don`t remember sleeping.
Somehow can`t feel my feelings.
But I`m okay?
I`m Oh Kay.
You say be strong.
So that I will be.
I`ll grow into it.
For now I'll get
use to the sagging.
The extra weight.
Anyone have safety pins?
I guess I`ll let time mend
what it must.
Let it speak.
Let it show what it must.
I`ll give this _____, whatever
this feeling is, to God.
Let Him peel away at it.
It`ll come out better.
I`ll let Him carry me.
Knowing that His footsteps
are those I see in the sand.
He`ll take my tears.
He`ll take my pain, this sinking
feeling in the pit of my stomach.
& At the end of this journey,
I`ll have grown into these new clothes.
Standing taller than I am now.
You`ll be by my side.
That`ll never change.
I`ll always feel you.
Not just in my heart
but in my spirit.
I`ll let the mmrs be my motivation.
Let your words be my guidance.
Let Him be my conscious.

☮ & ♥
-Eb
.Still Unbroken.

He Makes A Way Out Of NO WAY | ♡

Give These a Watch & Listen. They`re Great.!

May I Please Cover You, Please | ツ

One Of My FAVORITE Songs, Enjoy.



Peace + Love,
Eboni

Indescriable -♥-

My Love For You Goes Beyond What I Can Say.

I Love You †God.

Peace + Love

Eb.

Stay Blessed.

I Choose.

"I remember the very first day that I saw him, I found myself immediately intrigued by him. It`s like I knew this man from another life. Like back then maybe I was his husband, maybe he was my wife. && Even things I don`t like about him are find with me `cause it`s not hard for me to understand him `cause he`s so much like me. && It`s truly my pleasure to share his company. &&Yeah I know it`s god`s gift to breathe, yeah he breathes" – The Truth [India.Arie]

<3

Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.

[Verse 1:]
Here am I now looking at 30 and I got so much to say.
I gotta get this off of my chest, I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think.
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me.(Yeah)
I pitched a fork in the road of my life and ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.

[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose. (Yeah)

[Verse 2:]
I done been through some painful things I thought that I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes.
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances, but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.

[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

[Bridge:]
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.

[Verse 3:]
From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
"from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own." And hey!

[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be courageous in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.

[Bridge:]
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.

• India.Arie
  

Jesus Died & Rose On The Third Day.

For US.!

The Best Gift To Ever Be Given.

He Did It So That We Could Live & Continue Life In Heaven.!

I`m So Grateful.!!!

Live For Him & You Shall Live For An Eternity.!!

Confess Him As Your Lord& Savior Today, If You Already Haven`t.!!

Peace + Love.

<3

-Eb

I Have At Least One By My Side. <3

Quote Of The Day:

"I am your Friend. Ready to help, encourage, soothe tired nerves, and speak peace to your restlessness and fear."

Searching For Understanding
I`m Confrrrused
Lost, Trying To Be Found
| You May Be Able To Find Me In The Lost & Found Box |

It`s In God I Trust
So I Know That I Will Find That Light At The End Of The Tunnel
^_^

No Worries Then.

All Honor & Glory To God.
May You Be Blessed.

Peace + Love
XoXo

- God`s Child.
: )

<3 . . .Best of Me.

Have you ever been in a room of group of people & imagine what it`d be like to be stranded on a deserted island.?

I have.

Let`s just say I`d fear for my life.

L0l.

No. Seriously.

I think I`d be Ralph [ Read/Watch LORD OF THE FLIES ]

In all of about 5min. I had already figured out who`d be the one to take charge.

The one who`d whine about everything.

The one who would get picked on, but when you stand back & think about it they`re the smartest out the bunch.

&&The followers.

Lol.

As you can tell I have a silly imagination.

I like it though.

^_^

Any H00T.!

I AM SO HUNGRY.

So I`m on this cleansing thing with my mom. . .

We`re trying to get right for summer.!

But mostly to get healthier. . .

MOSTLY ME. . .

I`m a FAST F00D JUNKIE.!

Healthiness/Beauty is pain I guess.

We can only eat apples && drink water & apple juice.

20 apples.

3 days.

1 sad Eboni.

Pray For Me Yall.!

I am SO gonna smash on LOTS of CARBS on Saturday @ 12:00 a.m. ON the DOT.

Well I have to get back to this STUDY SESSION.

Peace + Love Til Next Time.

Eb.

♥

Paramore. ♥

100 Truths. <3

001. Real name → Eboni Renée Moore
002. Nickname(s)→ Bean. Ebby. E-B. Eb. Ebster. Eboni-Renée. E-Baby. EBay. Eb Eb. E-I. Eboneizer. Beautifull. Best Friend. Sweetz.
003. Zodiac → Gemini. [Why do People Back Away When I Tell Them This.??! lol.]
004. Male or female → FEMALE
005. Elementary → Colin Powell Academdy & Pulaski Elementary[ugh]
006. Middle School → Genesis Catholic & Transfiguration Catholic
007. High School → Winans Academy [For a Week] ; Lewis Cass Technical High School [ L ] ; Detroit Academy Of Arts & Sciences
008. Hair color → Dark Brown.
009. Long or short → Medium . . .?
010. Loud or Quiet → Varies.
011. Sweats or Jeans → Bothhh.
012. Phone or Camera -> BOTH.
013. Health freak → Eh. Lol.
014. Drink or Smoke? → Neither.
015. Do you have a crush on someone → I Wouldn`t Hardly Call It A Crush. I`m in Wuuuuuvvvvv.
016. Eat or Drink → Come On. I`m An Eatologist.
017. Piercings → 2Ear Lobes + 1Tragus = 3Piercings.
018. Tattoos → Nada. It MIGHT Stay That Way.

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ No. LOL. Horrible. Scarrdy Cat.?
020. Been in a relationship → Uh, Yuh.
021. Been in a car accident → Yeah. L
022. Been in a fist fight→ Once. &%#$@

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears.
024. First best friend → Jamie. . .?
025. First award → Principles Honor Roll In FIRST Grade. ^_^
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → God[But He`s GOD]. . .so, Courtney <3
030. Last person you texted → Jose.
031. Last person you watched a movie with→ Amber, CHANGELING.
032. Last food you ate → Wendy`s Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger & Chicken Nuggets with Honey Mustard. . .mmm.
033. Last movie you watched → See 031.
034. Last song you listened to --> Sexy Back – Justin Timberlake.
035. Last thing you bought → Little Ceasars a Couple Days Ago. Lol.
036. Last person you hugged --> Courtney.

FAVES:
037. Food → Pizza.
038. Drinks → Strawberry ANYTHING.
039. Clothing → I`don't Know. A Cute Top is Always Great. . .lol.
040. Flower → Lillie.
042. Color → Pink. Black. Purple. Blue.
043. Movie → Too Many To Mention.!
044. Subject → English & Forensic Science.

Check all that apply
In 2008, I....

045. [x] kissed someone
046. [] celebrated Halloween
047. [] had your heart broken
048. [x] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone
049. [] someone questioned your sexual orientation
050. [] gotten someone pregnant
051. [] gotten pregnant
052. [] had an abortion
053. [] done something you've regretted
054. [x] broke a promise
055. [X] hid a secret
056. [] pretended to be happy
057. [X] met someone who changed your life
058. [x] pretended to be sick
059. []left the country
060. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
061. [x] cried over the silliest thing
062. [x] ran a mile
063. [X] went to the beach with a good friend
064. [] got into an argument with your friends
065. [] hated someone
066. [] stayed single the whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → SO HUNGRY. I`m Thinking IHOP though. mmm
068. Drinking → I Need Some Water. . .BRB. . .Water [ √ ]
069. I'm about to → Finish Watching This Oprah Epy On Abusive Men. [ Tsk tsk C.Brown ]
070. Listening to → Gym Class Heroes. . .WMP on Shuffle.!
071. Plans for today → Honey & Bean Time. ^_^
072. Waiting for: 12o`clock To Hit. : D

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → YES.
074. Want to get married? → Of Course.
075. Careers in mind → Psychologist ; Forensic Psychology ; Forensic Scientist ; Lawyer ; FBI . . .A Girl Can DREAM. Lol.
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → OMGosh. Once, When I Was 6 I Thought I Left My Glasses In The Classroom. They Turned Out To Be On My Face.! Haha. Mom&Teacher Gotta A Good Laugh Though. Lol.
084. Snuck out of your house → Umm. . .Sneaking Out To The Curb Count.? [YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.!!! LMBO]
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nope.
086. Killed somebody → Uh. . .Not y. ..NO. lol.
087. Broken someone's heart → I`m SO Sorry.
088. Been arrested → Umm. . .no comment.
089. Cried when someone died → R.I.P Granny & Great-GrandMa. L

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → Of Course.
091. Miracles → Yes. Woman Of Great FAITH.
092. Love at first sight → Ha. Not With People.
093. Heaven → Eternity.
094. Santa Claus → Yeah, sure. K
095. Sex on the first date: NO.
096. Kiss on the first date → NOPE.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes. He Knows His Good Fortune. LOL.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → YES.
099. Do you believe in God → My Creator.? Yes.!

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 25 people- OK?

Love; Simply put. ♡

Another Old One.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always.
—1 Corinthians 13:3-7

God
is love; therefore, love is strong, resilient, and does not change.

&&There is nothing fragile, temporary, vulnerable, unpredictable, or unreliable about that. . .!

■ Love is ALWAYS
supportive, loyal, hopeful, and trusting.

■ Love is not a game. It is not only a noun; it is also a verb.

■ Love comes in ALL shapes&&forms.
Not just with your girl&&your guy.

&&It is not a feeling that comes & goes based on who you are looking at in any given moment.

It`s everything you expect&&everything you don`t.

♥`Eboni

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Listening to: Maria Mena - You´re The Only One

Inspiration. . .♥

Something Old Again. . .But Very Relevant.

Christianity is not religion, but a way of life. We can talk it, but it means nothing if we don't walk it. Simply put -- it's a life style of love. Have you every noticed people who are naturally kind and giving, and you wonder if they are a Christian? And if you ask them, they may say they never been to church a day in their life. Then there's those people who confess Christ, go to church "religiously", and act like the devil himself.

I've come to the conclusion that in living right is all Christ expects of me. Being kind and giving to myself and others is what I need to do. It's just that simple. You should know them by the [ fruits ] they bear, not how well they talk the s c r i p t u r e s; but how they perform them. This walk of love doesn't have to be so difficult -- it's not a religion -- it's a way of life.

Be that example.!

Inspired by the Spirit.

| Restore |ation.♥

Oldie.

Restoration
By: E.R.M.

As the rain is to the ground.
Today is a day of restoration.
To purify my mind.
My conscience&&my heart.
A day of self-reflection.
Just me, my thoughts&&my favorite
purple pen.
This day anew.
A gift fromGod.
A day to be grateful&&thankful.
He didnt have to bring me to this moment.
Full of so much.
Mostly love.
Mostly for myself.
Restoration.
It's a b e a u t yFull thing.
Like arguing with your sister.
And
five minutes later joking about the most insignificant thing.
There's beauty in e v e r y t h i n g.
In this brief moment.
I reflect on of all of it, that most might not even recognize.
No room for hate or envy or greed
here.
Not in this moment.
Of restoration.
A moment to let my soul
breathe.
Let God speak to it.
Through a message of Proverbs 21:13 :

Whoever shuts his ear to the poor
Will also cry himself and not be heard.

Or maybe J.Moss' melody&&flow.
Moments like this I cherish.
Lacking the guilt, sadness&&hopelessness.
As the rain is to the ground.
Today is a day of purity and b e a u t y Full restoration.
♥
Peace.Love.Restoration.

Bittersweet.

Something OLD. . .i`m transferring all my old stuff on to hear...[mainly from fb]

[ Robin Thicke serenades in the background ]
Never one to put my feelings on blast. . .ON A NOTE. . .this is a first for me [ but ] like they say there's a first for everything. Okay, iGuess iLl just start with saying that the last few months[ the last year actually ] have been a real eye-opener for me. Somethings have happened in my life that iReally didn't understand until now [ some iStill don't ] &&they have all taught me&&shown me that in the end all iTruly have is me. iAccept that. I also came to the conclusion that, if you let it, all things come baqq to G O D, my other father figure. My beginning&&my end. The one iCan always go to without fail. . .the one iCan forever count on to walk beside me always. When all others, fail me, He's there.

iHave [ learned ] how child-like some people can be in theire thinking. That they have to impose whatever anger that they may feel towards themselves upon ME. How there are so many, too many, lost souls who walk this earth. iHave come to understand that not everyone [ if you didn't already know for yourself ] is entitled&&deserving to hold a place in your life. iHave learned from personal experience that everyone who does eventually walk in your life is there for whatever reason and may not always be there for a totally different one. Over the past couple of weeks iHave come to the realization of what iWant life for me to be. iWant to be H A P P Y. That's it, pure&& honest happiness. That's something that iVe always aimed for but iHave just come to the realization that happiness isn't something that can be satisfied through others. It can only be found within one's own self. I believe it can be achieved by putting GOD at the head of your life&&allowing all other things to follow suit.

iHave learned that iCan only be me. Nothing more or less. iCan only
L i v e for me. That's it. Personal opinions no longer faze me.

iHave, more&&more over time, become unimpressed with some things that iHave witnessed in life. How people are so easy to H A T E one another. How it's become so acceptable. The norm. When it is soOoO much less stressful&&time consuming to convey L O V E. It's definitely much more effortless to do than the action of its counterpart. iPersonally don't hate anyone. iJust find some peoples actions to be to faulty to associate myself with them. No one is perfect, it's a fact. We all have our FLAWS&&ALL. We all have fallen guilty to having flaws. So just stop the hate. It's not the type of thing you want on your heart.

Over this time of internal self-reflection iDiscovered that anyone who is meant to be in my life, is meant to be&&will be. It should be an effortless relationship. iVe come o notice that iTend to put a lot of myself [ too much sometimes ] into others&&their needs. A lot of times it isn't returned. iKnow iShouldnt expect anything but sometimes people don't realize that it's not a one way street, it's a two way. Don't take my kindness for weakness. It's by far one of my greatest strengths as a person. iCan honestly say that's it's a blessing. iHave learned not to expect anything from anyone, except God. iHave put all in his hands. Entrusted him with my future&&my destiny. It is him where iFind my purpose. Him whom iWish for a better relationship with. All others fall after.

Another issue in which iHave wanted to express is this thing called L O V E. iWas recently asked what iFelt it was in terms of a relationship [ Boy/Girl ]. This is basically the answer that iGave:


Love to me is something that is shared between two people who have each others best interest at heart. It's about R E S P E CT. You respect each other. It's not about flowers and physical [ flowers just because it's Tuesday&&a hug just because it just feels right, aren't bad, don't get me wrong ]. iM talking about motivation&&words of reassurance&&incouragement. Love is not having the feeling of not being able to live without that person, because you can, it's that you really don't want to. Its calling just to say hey&&to ask how your day was. [ Personal: It's someone who is willing to help you to become closer to G O D&&is willing to pray with you ]. It's having someone who doesn't pressure you. It's having someone who expects nothing from you. Love isn't just a spring of a moment decision. It's not compromising. Love is kind&&patient. It's not forced. It's wanting that person to be happy whether it's with you or not.


That's my idea of what real and true love is, but there is soOoOo much more to it. That is something that iVE recently vowed to never compromise. Never to lower my standard, because it's what iDeserve. iVe but once experienced the closest thing to this love and let it go for something that wasn't right, because iCalled myself being bored. hmph. iGUess we live&&learn right. But iWont beat myself up about it. iJust hopes that person finds all the love he truly deserves and that iCouldnt give. Everything has its time&&season.

I'm always changing. . .stumbling upon more insight&&enlightenment on this life iVe been given to explore. &&like iSaid before everything has an end&&like iAlso said everything comes back to GOD.

So, GoD BleSs.!(((♥)))


[ Kanye West ft. John Mayer - - ->Bittersweet Poetry playing in the background ]

Ready. Aim. Shoot.

Smooth, Sleek

Untouchable

Fearless

Chase`em At Your Own Risk

See If You`re Not His Next Target.

 

Eh, It Happens.

Bang.

Bang.

Bang.

They`re Dead.

Life oF An Assassin.

Cry For Attention

You Have All You`ve Ever Wanted

All You Say You Need

Does That Mean You Stop Doing What Got You Here?

Does The Feeling Of Longing Cease To Exist?

Is The Constant Calling Now Played Out?

Now That You Have Me, Do You No Longer Feel The Need To Win Me Over?

I Understand That You have Your Own Life To Lead

Other Priorities To Tend To

I Just Can`t Help But To Feel Like I`m Falling Further Down The List

So To Keep From Falling Further And Further I Cry Out

Whether My Argument Is Rational Or Even Makes Sense

It Doesn`t Matter

Perhaps That`s Where I Have Failed You

    Myself

    Us

Maybe I Should Give More Of A Heads Up

Let You Know What`s Up

Give More Insight On What`s Going Inside This Brain Of Mine

Maybe We Could Figure This Out Together

We Might Discover That I Let My Mind Wander

Take Control Of What I Know In My Heart To Be Truth

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By : Jose R. & I

The stars are my thoughts.

Scattered.

So here I go wit some of my galaxies.

So far spaced.

I don't know exactly where they start or where they happen to begin.

Lost. Gone. Home.

They feel so close but if you stare you'll need to squint.

But don't squint too much.

You might miss their routes.

Cuz they travel the same way.

Away.

To a place I dare not roam.

Yet still I attempt to grasp for the right ones.

Even when I know they all lead to my farewells and your goodbyes.

And someone once told me never to tell her goodbye cuz that's forever

But what do I say to the one that never says forever.

I'm not clever so my words just misspell themselves into humiliation.

Then I'm left to rain alone.

Power the sky to little droplets of regrets in a life of fear.

Fear of losing.

Now I've reached my resting place and my fear has come true.

I've lost you.

And there is no turning back.

And certainly no relinquishing what we had.

Or what I thought we had.

All because of those damn galaxies.

To Say What You Need To Say

If We Said What We Needed To Say

Would That Live Us With All Words Spoken?

Would There Be Silence From That Moment On?

Could We Go On?

Every Page In Our Story Would Have Been Written

&&There`d Be No Mystery

The Climax Would Have Then Met Its Destination

The Plot & Theme Both Discovered

We Would Have Reached Our Ending

After Sorting Through Our Middle

&&Realizing Our Beginning

The Facts & Misfortune of This Short Lived Story Studied

After All That Was Needed To Be Said, Was