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I watched as you slowly overlapped your four fingers over what was once mine. I began to lose consciousness. The life that was at one time "ours", flashed before my eyes. I watched as it slowly became no more. At every attempt to plead for you not to be the death of me, I failed. I wasn't ready for it to end; certainly not like this. I feared this day would come.. I knew it would but I prayed that it wouldn't. Witnessing the color being drained from all around me.. I watched as you held what was once my heart in the palm of your hand. I watched as you knowingly crunched every bit of life out. Remorse seeming to have escaped from here. I listened as the tempo of what was left of me slowed. The crimson in your eyes reflecting the life that once was. Nothing but a puddle on the floor. In your right palm rested a sculpture of ice, but it wasn`t quite cold. How could pain bring about such beauty? For a while you marveled at the what you created(&destroyed), but it wasn't long before you threw me aside like all the others. Shattered on the floor, unable to pick myself up. I, was no longer...

(work in progress)

"It`s not about me.."



Some days it's a battle..
Whether to keep sanity intact,
weeding out the pessimism,
& or keeping the smile plastered on correctly.
Life can be a struggle. (duh)
You don`t want to make them uncomfortable,
so you suffer in silence.
For sake of keeping up a pretty picture..
Hiding the less than attractive that lie underneath.
When is it ever okay to step out?
At which point is it okay to show all of you?
Can that be safe?

"It`s not about me.."


Shine On, Love

Live by this quote:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are  inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we  are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the Glory of God that is within us. It’s not in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence liberates others.”
~Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech **written by Marianne Williamson

"It`s not about me.."

It's never goodbye, just see you later.

It's only heartbreak if you let it break you.
Allowing yourself to see the bigger picture isn`t
the easiest thing to do, but it`s the best way to deal.
For me at least.
One way to look at disappointment is that you`re
being forced to look at all the good that is waiting
to be recognized & appreciated.
Not so good circumstances shouldn`t be allowed
to keep you down for too long.
Cry, sulk, whatever (for a moment) & keep it moving.
Life is a teacher, so take advantage & l e a r n.
Get out of it all that you can.
Love while you can.
Give what you can.
Enjoy it all.

Love you,

"It`s not about me.."


Parasite of Civilization

"There is nothing as pitiful as a young cynic because he has gone from knowing nothing to believing nothing."

- Maya Angelou

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Belief is the first step. &Knowing may or may not come. Trusting is stepping outside of yourself. It's leaving your comfort zone. It is freedom. It's forgetting(forgiving) past hurts & let downs. It's allowing your guard to fall. Trust requires selflessness. When you`re ready, try it, you never know what your lacking trust is blocking you from.

"It`s not about me.."
The universe is full of magical things patiently waiting for our wits to grow sharper.

-E. Phillpots

"It`s not about me.."


Second First Love

Heart racing.
Chasing the beat.
Hard hitting.
Where emotions & rhythm acquaint.
Tear jerking.
It`s a journey.
Taking me there.
Where rifts & guitar breaks soothe the soul.
Too often abused & confused.
Foot tapping.
Girl, you betta catch that beat.
Hips rocking.
Often it leads to conception.
The Beautiful.
Taking me there.
It's a journey.
Tear jerking.
Where emotion & rhythm acquaint.
Hard hitting.
Chasing the beat.
Heart racing.


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"It`s not about me.."


I`m no where near where I wanna be, but I know I`ve come a long ways.. My expectations & where I see myself going are far less than what He sees in me. God`s will & plan for my life is far greater than I could ever bring myself to envision.

I`m still learning not to be so hard on myself due to short-comings.. In no way am I perfect, except in that I was made with all the tools I need to get me where I am destined to be. Every time that I fall, I`ll continue to get back up & dust myself off. Where I am is where I am supposed to be. & There are always lessons to be learned.. Dwelling on where I want to be, how I`m gonna get there, & why things aren`t moving as swiftly as I want them to go, won`t get me anywhere. So I`m leaning not on my own understanding & I`m gonna align my will with my Creator. That`s thee`BEST way to do.. It's not easy, but no one ever said it would be.

Much Love, Peace & Understanding,

"It is NOT about me.."


My Love

My love for you is unbreakable. So unstopable. So unable to grammar so it stays incorrect. Cause I've been taught to right correctly. But I just want to love you. And I do. I will. Because my heart is circle in the words that say I LOVE YOU. And I hope it gets to be alive some day. Until then it's here in my chest, locked. Be Smooth.


"It`s not about me.."


Knowledge. <--Seek

"..the more you think you know, the less you know. The more willing you are to learn, the more likely you are to seek and find only to discover there is stll so much more."
-Sister Souljah

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"To love myself, to understand my value & my power, to please God, I must add to the good in the world & not the evil." - Sister Souljah

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Soooo, I think this is one on my best investments.! I finally got the Bible Experience: Old Testament.. & I LOVE it sooo far. I recommend to anyone who loves the Bible, anyone who never read it, anyone who may think reading the Bible is boring, ANYONE. Just watch the video above. =)

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It`s seeing past the flaw, because it`s just another mask of who you really are.

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Its Beyond Me

To finally be in love, and know the real meaning of
A lasting relationship, not based on ownership
I trust every part of you, cuz all that I...
All that you say you do
You love me despite myself, sometimes I fight myself
I just can't believe that you, would have anything to do
With someone so insecure, someone so immature
Oh you inspire me, to be the higher me
You made my desire pure, you made my desire pure
Just tell me what to say, I can't find the words to say
Gotta Find Peace of Mind - Lauryn Hill

"It`s not about me.."



Trauma from our pasts doesn't have to drive our future, and we don't have to be free of all our aching memories, all our fears and inner conflicts, to be at peace & move forward. Gaining insight into what holds us back is the first step.

Food For Thought

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"Moving Forward, I Have A Long Way To Go. I`m Just Trying. . .Finding My Find Through This Thing Called Life. HE`s Got My Back So I`m Not Worried."

"It`s not about me.."

Long Road..

"It`s not about me.."