We all go around roaming this place blindly, so it`s quite understandable that we stumble ever now & again.. Speaking for myself, I walk blind by faith, with the understanding that everything that I need will come to me. (When praises go up, blessings are bound to come down.) Maybe not when I want it, but when I am in most need. .. I`ve made it thus farm o s t l y unscathed, pretty sure that I`m on the right path, &ABSOLUTEon the belief that I wouldn`t be here without the grace of The Creator..
I like to say that I`m not much a worrier.. Things happen. Life`s unexpectancies—they happen. So why add on the unnecessary chore that is worry to the mixing pot.? I`ve gone through my share of crappy experiences, but as it is said "life goes on" & we can probably all attest to that belief. What good does stressing have in store for anyone.? Will it get the bills paid, mouths fed, tasks checked off the list.? I didn`t think so.."Not worrying"doesn`t mean that you care any less, but that you fully understand that it never got anyone closer to the destination.. If anything it was like pressing the pause button. So STOP worrying, let go &.. well you know the rest.
Created a new blog today.. I don`t think I`ll ever be ready to reveal it to anyone. Yeah, I`m keeping this one private.. Er, yeah.. ThatIsAll..for now.
Everything's changing.. In every area of my life. I so strongly wish there were a pause button for this thing.. So I could absorb every moment of joy, every laugh, even the pain.. Of course there are memories.. But even those eventually fade.. Friends change, your surroundings change, even LOVE changes(can't catch a break).. The one thing that always remains unchanged is God..
(...And Jose) I guess that's all that matters..
"Expect no more from others than you're willing to give." <3 - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone -
How do you console someone when you haven't experienced the level of lost that they have.. Is it in a hug.? So they don't feel pain for even but a moment.. Do you tell them a joke.? So their mind wanders even if it's just for a sec.. Do you tell them you love them.? So that the hate is subdued for no longer than it takes you to say it.. Do you make their dreams come true.? So the nightmares don't come for one night.. How do you console someone who has lost so much.?? HOW.? God allows us to bare no more than we can handle this is true.. But why MUST the devil test this factor.! Have you no remorse.? Stupid question I suppose..
The best remedy for curing a bruised and battered heart is allowing God see to it's repair..
-- I love you bro, but most importantly God loves you. He has his mighty hand over you & your family.. R.I.Paradise Shanita Brown
Let your light light. Let it burn when the darkness is too much. For if you don't light the way who will? Be your body, be the now, be at peace. Do the right thing and you won't be left in the dark. Understand that "a candle loses nothing by lighting another candle." Remember, "ye are Gods" so as God is God, you are God. Now let others see the God in you. You don't have to make them see it, you just do it. Be in humility and if you stumble don't fall. Because if you do, your belief is gone and you'll see the ground. You can fly and you'll be fine. Now go, go spread the fire that burns when it gets cold. Go spread the light. Go spread the Word. Go.
- Enlightened One.
"It`s not about me.."
10.13.2009
"Let no man despise your youth; but be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity … do not neglect the gift that is in you, which was given to you … meditate on these things; give yourself entirely to them, that your progress may be evident to all … continue in them for in doing this you will save both yourself and those who hear you" (1 Timothy 4: 12, 14-16)
"It`s not about me.."
10.12.2009
I wanna stay in this moment for forever But I can`t So I`ll put it in my pocket Keep it there for safe keeping So when I`m scared.. It`ll put its arms around me When I`m lonely.. It'll stand beside me It'll keep me Repayment for keeping it.. Safe Its the hug I held for that extra 5sec. The laugh I kept a little too long The peace I obtain when prayers are said It's like when your lips are pressed against mine Seems like the world is right And for that moment every wrong made right
Yo, there's a war in the mind, over territory For the dominion Who will dominate the opinion Skisms and isms, keepin' us in forms of religion Conformin' our vision To the world churches decision Trapped in a section Submitted to committee election Moral infection Epedemic lies and deception Insurrection Of the highest possible order Destortin' our tape recorders From here and like under water Beyond the borders Fond of sin and disorder Bound by the strategy It's systematic deprivaty Heavy as gravity Head first in the cavity Without a bottom A fate worse than Sodom What's got 'em Drunk of the spirits Truth comes, we can't hear it When you've been, programmed to fear it I had a vision I was fallin' in indescision Apollin', callin' religion Some program on television How can dominant wisdom Be recognized in the system Of Anti-Christ, the majority rules Intelligent fools PhD's in illusion Masters of mass confusion Bachelors in past illusion Now who you choosin' The head or the tail The bloodshed of male Or confidance in the veil Conferences of Yale Discussin' doctrines of Baal Causin' people to fail Keepin' the third in jail His word has nailed Everything to the tree Severing all of me from all that I used to be Formless and void Totally paranoid Enjoy darkness as the Lord Keepin' me from the sword Blocked from mercy Bitter than cerasee Hungry and thirsty For good meat we would eat And still, dined at the table of deceit How incomplete From confrontation to retreat We prolong the true enemies defeat Destitute a necessity Causin' desperation to get the best of me Punishment 'til there was nothing left of me Realizin' the unescapable death of me No options in the valley of decision The only doctrine, supernatural circumcision Inwardly only water can purge the heart From words, the fiery darts Thrown by the workers of the arts Iniquity, shapen in There's no escapin' when You're whole philosophy is paper thin In vanity The wide road is insanity Could it be all of humanity? Picture that Scripture that The origin of man's heart is black How can we show up for An invisible war Preoccupied with a shadow, makin' love with a whore Achin' in sores Babylon, the great mystery Mother of human history System of social sorcery Our present condition Needs serious recognition Where there's no repentance there can be no remission And that sentence, more serious than Vietnam The atom bomb, and Saddam, and Minister Farakkhan What's goin' on, what's the priority to you by what authority do we do the majority hasn't a clue We majored in curses Search the chapters, check the verses Recapture the land Remove the mark from off of our hands So we can stand In agreement with his command Everything else is damned Let them with ears understand Everything else is damned, let them with ears understand
It really isn't about me because I give my praise to God. The bless sings are in my ear everyday. It feels like heaven on earth. And I'm happy to be alive. I also feel somewhat full, so my spirit is filling up slowly, but surely. I thank you. I give my devotion to HIM and I hope I can be his LIGHT for others to follow in the right direction. Enjoy. One.
So you steal it Escape away with nothing You try to feel it But what you have is plastic Your burned your pocket And everything that's in it On your search for something That is real [Chorus] Well if you need love Take the time and be love Breathe it out create love See how things can turn If you need love Give yourself and be love Breathe it out create love See how things can turn It's so empty But your room is full of people It's so quiet But everyone's so loud [Chorus] And if you need love Take the time and be love Breathe it out create love See how things can turn If you need love Give yourself and be love Breathe it out create love See how things can turn Inside your ruining the mood You're singing solitude Forgetting all you knew So look, look into the mirror Swallow all your fear Believe it's really near [Chorus] Cause if you need love Take the time and be love Breathe it out create love See how things can turn If you need love Give yourself and be love Breathe it out create love See how things can turn [1x]
Drink up baby doll Are you in or are you out? Leave your things behind 'Cause it's all going off without you Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy These mishaps You bubble-wrap When you've no idea what you're like [Chorus:] So, let go,let go Jump in Oh well, what you waiting for? It's all right 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown So, let go, l-let go Just get in Oh, it's so amazing here It's all right 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown It gains the more it gives And then it rises with the fall So hand me that remote Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow? Such boundless pleasure We've no time for later Now you can't await your own arrival you've twenty seconds to comply [Chorus:] So, let go, so let go Jump in Oh well, what you waiting for? It's alright 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown So, let go, yeah let go Just get in Oh, it's so amazing here It's all right 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown [Background sounds] [Chorus:] So, let go, so let go Jump in Oh well, what you waiting for? It's alright 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown So, let go, yeah let go Just get in Oh, it's so amazing here It's all right 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown In the breakdown 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown The breakdown So amazing here 'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
Everyday I learn something new. Whether it`s about people, in stuff I read & watch, or just stuff in general. I think when you open up your eyes, like REALLY open them, to the things around you see things that you might often miss if your eyes were half open. So that`s how I plan to live my life. To keep myself open to learning. I love learning & I want to learn as much as I can. That`s my goal in life. To know. The good, the bad, the things thought as impossible but is actually in fact possible, the beautiful, the things that can be misinterpreted as ugly, the lies, & mostly the truth. It`s what I`m gonna strive for. . .I think Learning may be my gift. . .I`m CHOOSING to tap in such a gift. I like it. I LOVE it. It`s greaaaaaatttt. = ]
Live. Love. Laugh. Learn. Many Blessings Your Way, -Eboni Renee
I love cooking. Why not.? I love to eat.! Lol. But seriously I really enjoy the process. I like the sense of independence, I love that I can control something as small as what I nurture[&the lack of, sometimes. lol] my body with. = ]
It`s amazing. . . I like to see the beauty in everything & everyone now-a-days. I realize we`re from the same creator so we all have that in common at least. I`m really taking in life more, we have to step back in order to do that . . .because it`s true that. . .It`s not about you or me. . .
Matt. 5:7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
We all make mistakes. We all error. There are things we struggle with and there are even times when we just do the fool and fall short. This does not necessarily make us a bad person or even a sinner. As long as we can acknowledge our errors as errors, and ask God to forgive us, we can be reinstated back to the place where we were before the sin. We all sin and fall short. Anyone that pretends to never sin is a liar and they deceive themselves. As Christians, we don't practice sin on the regular, but there are situations, struggles, issues, etc. that we are all trying to grow past. What's my point? Don't condemn people for errors! When you wipe your hands of people that make mistakes, you only cause yourself to be condemned when you make mistakes. You cannot pass severe judgments on people without those same judgments coming back on you. Now, this is not to say that a person that is practicing sin, or harming the body of Christ with their actions should not be called out by those that have the authority, but it is to say that, mistakes can and should be overlooked if the person has gotten it right with God.
There is going to come a time when you will need mercy. You will be in a situation where you will desire to be reinstated by God after you error. So, don't deny others the mercy that you will need. God desires to bring us all to heaven and has a place for us all in his Kingdom. God is not trying to put people in hell. So, why do we do that? We are not better than God and if God is merciful, we should desire to be. Now, we should call sin sin, and we should not turn our heads the other way when we see our brothers and sisters in error, but we should be merciful towards them and try to help them back to their rightful place in God. If they don't hear you, that's another story. But if they will hear, acknowledge their error and repent, then we should be willing to help them move past it and give them direction for total deliverance and future avoidance. The mercy you give is the same mercy you shall have!
Suggested Reading: Heb. 8:12, Luke 6:36, Luke 18:13
My Silence Speaks Louder Than My Words Could Ever Allow. My Silence. It Holds Words Unsaid, Actions Not Needed To Be Performed. It Tells Everything That I Can Not Tell With My Mouth. It Is Power. My Silence. It Fights When I Am Not Strong Enough. My Silence. It Keeps Me. It Holds Truths, Things You May Not Be Ready To Hear. My Silence. My Silence It Is Golden & It Speaks Volumes.
We`re all Beautiful in our imperfections.. It`s then when we feel so imperfect that we search for the Perfect. When we seek we will find. As simple as that. May not seem like it because of the thing that is time. But it`s truly as simple as saying,
Nervous. You know the feeling of going against the grain.? Of opposing the opposer. Of being opposed. Then I remember its for a better cause. Bigger than you. Bigger than me. Bigger than this world. Bigger than the word I. Looking at the bigger picture. . . This is when reassurance sets in. . . It`s after doubt tries to re-appear.
[That was there and I didn't type it...hmmm...Interesting.]
Sometimes life gets so hard that your soft hands that use to pray just pay enough that they should get by. And they do, barely able to stand on their own because they've lost the ground that let them live on an Earth where God was the sun. But sometimes, the sun needs a break, and the clouds take over. So what do you do then? Just let go and let God. As much as it's cliche it's the best thing to do. Look around, there's other people in worse situations than you are. You might just be their Inspiration. So stop being gloomy, and tired. It's your job to shine, especially when the sun needs a break. Shine, Shine like there's no tomorrow. Today might be your yesterday. So live it up. I try, but I'm not perfect. So I still learn till I've learned I can't live anymore. And that's when I'll be in Eternity, where I can cover you from the rain. So don't complain just find joy in the small moments.
So I have this friend who I really care about but my spirit is bothered by his lack of relationship with God & understanding of his will and Word. I`ve been really attempting to reach him, well lately mainly because of my new found wisdom. I understand that we cant do things out of our own will if we want to be sure that it is done correctly & of God, so I prayed that God would open the window of opportunity to share His will & guidance through me. &Today it HAPPENED. I mean he`s heard my beliefs & how I feel about my Christianity before but this time I KNEW without doubt that it was of God. He approached me. He was asking whether I was watching Black In America 2 on CNN. I said, not in these exact words, that I would try to catch it another time & that I had more important things to do[study my Word, research, etc.] than to watch something that only shows how we as a people use EXCUSES entirely too much. I continued to explain that I don`t need to be reminded what we go through, because I indeed understand & know first hand. . .[I am Black, if you did not know.]. He asked me if the Bible was what was keeping my attention, I confirmed his assumption. This led to a. . . "heated debate", if you will. His opinion & misconceptions[worldly views] Vs. The knowledge & wisdom I`ve acquired over the passing weeks. . .actually from throughout my ENTIRE life[Thanks God & parents.! = )]. It was interesting to watch, it was like I was an audience in a boxing match. . .watching myself. Some may call it an outer body experience. Blow for Blow. But it was not of violence. . . He gave one misconstrued jab after another, really like anyone would who lacks understanding of a subject. &I`d hit with an upper cut. His Position was that the Bible is man made therefore in many ways corrupt. My point was that yes man physically wrote it, but it was the Spirit & Voice of God that led to the men to build the Bible. . .Not of personal will but of God`s will. I believe I had the upper hand because I`ve be studying & I asked for God to guide me. . .For Him to MOVE through me. I feel that He did. Though, I feel that both of our point of views shed light on. 1. How when we aren`t guided by the right forces we lack a true understanding. 2. Knowledge & Wisdom & Understanding Is POWER. It`s God`s will for that moves me to spread my knowledge. I, Eboni Renee, understand I can`t PUSH anyone into any belief. . .but what I can do is show the Spirit of God in me. . .I know as the Fruits that I bare that grow of the Spirit will continually bloom. . .
I`m learning to approach things more wisely. . .I have to remember that it is indeed NOT about me. . .Sooo. . .In light of that I`m gonna just TRY. I`m gonna continue on this journey of growth in the right direction. I don`t plan on compromising or falling into the "peer pressures" that exist in life. . .No matter where it comes from. Whether it`s family, friends, or any others that I may encounter in day to day life. I consider that everything/everyone that tests me is allowed to do so because there is something to learn from that said test, to improve me. So I`m just gonna let the Spirit guide be. . .&try my BEST. I`m human so I know that I make mistakes, it`s what I CHOOSE to learn from the mistake that matters. Yes, we do CHOOSE to learn our lessons, we CHOOSE to take HEED. It`ll make me BETTER. It`s not easy, but anything worth having doesn`t come at a cheap cost. I`m willing to pay.
Much Love & Peace. -Eboni Renee Check Out: Proverbs 8- The Excellence Of Wisdom
We Need To Educate Ourselves. . .Otherwise Remain Prisoners Of Our Own Ignorance. The Bible Says Watch As Well As Pray. We Need To Get Ourselves&Houses In Order. . .
"Half truths" are not of Godly origin. Know one thing if nothing else. . .God only gives WHOLE truths. Nothing less. Believe That. Yep, keep that in mind. . .
Uh. . .I Know I`m Not Supposed To Allow Doubt To Set In. . .But It Sometimes The Feeling Is Strong. Like My Vision Becomes Blurry & The Clarity That I Had Moments Before Slips Away Slowly. . .But I Guess That`s When The Phrase, "Leave no room for doubt", Comes In. DUDE It`s Hard Out Here In These Streets. SERIOUSLY Though. . .Every Which Way I Turn It Seems Like Something Pulling Me Backwards. It`s DISCOURAGING, Yo. But I Refuse To Turn Back. Nope. No Return. "So Doubt Leavveee. Go Awayyyy." [ sometimes you gotta talk to yourself, ya know.? ]
Another Feeling--Man. . This Love Thing. Like I Know It`s HIS Way To Love Everyone With The Love Of The Big Guy Upstairs[who I still don`t think is as HUGE&GIGANTIC a lot of people think, I mean I could be wrong. . .Heck, I haven`t seen him in the physical. . .] But. . .What Was I Saying. . . ?? I Do That A Lot. . .The Whole Off Topic Thing. . . But Yeah . . .Uh. . .LOVE, yes. I Know That That`s I`m To Do, But It`s A Struggle. It`s Like I`m By Nature A "Nice Person", But Being Nice Isn`t Enough. You Have To Go That Extra Mile. . .Any Non-Believer Can Be "Nice". . .I Have To Set Myself Apart. I Can`t Blend In With The Crowd Only To Find That I`m Going With The Flow Of Each Passing Trends. It`s A Must That I Show What HE Wants To Show. So I`ll Let Him Continue To Move Through Me. Work On Me. Improve Me With Each Passing Day. I`m Human I Can`t Do It On My Own. . .It`s Like More & More I`m Realizing I Can`t Do It On My Own. I Don`t Do It On My Own. I`ll Just Continue To Try. . .Try To Let HIS Will For My Life Manifest. It`s A Process. &Like Any Process It Takes Time & Dilengence
Ecclesiastes 10:11 :
The race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, not bread to the wise, nor riches to mean of understanding, nor favor to men of skill; But time and chance happen to them all.
I`m Just Gonna Slow My Role. Remember That Making A Mistake Doesn`t Me Any Less. It Doesn`t Retract Any Of The Progress I`ve Made. It Let It Encourage Me To IMPROVE. We`re Human We Make Mistakes, It`s What We Do With After We Make Said Mistakes That Defines Us. Just Let Go & Let God. Yep. It Works. . .
Don`t Let People Discourage You. They Don`t Have The Authority To Lead You Away From The Direction God Leads You, But Always Be Open To The Wisdom That They Have To Share With You. We All Know That We Aren`t Of Perfection So All Can Stand Growth. Don`t Allow Your Self To Jump On The Defensive When You Feel Like You`re Being "Attacked". . .Look At It From A Point Of View Other Than Your Own. BUT Remember That God`s Wisdom Is At Our Finger Tips. [The Holy Bible] So Take Advantage. If You Seek, You Will Eventually Find.!!
I gotta find peace of mind I know another cord... I gotta find peace of mind See, this what that voice in your head says When you try to get peace of mind... I gotta find peace of mind, I gotta find peace of mind He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible He says there's no me without him, please help me forget about him He takes all my energy, trapped in my memory Constantly holding me, constantly holding me I need to tell you all, all the pain he's caused, mmmm I need to tell I'm, I'm undone because, mmmm He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible He says it's impossible without him, but I know it's possible To finally be in love, and know the real meaning of A lasting relationship, not based on ownership I trust every part of you, cuz all that I... All that you say you do You love me despite myself, sometimes I fight myself I just can't believe that you, would have anything to do With someone so insecure, someone so immature Oh you inspire me, to be the higher me You made my desire pure, you made my desire pure Just tell me what to say, I can't find the words to say Please don't be mad with me, I have no identity All that I've known is gone, all I was building on I don't wanna walk with you, how do I talk to you Touch my mouth with your hands, touch my mouth with your hands Oh I wanna understand, the meaning of your embrace I know now I have to face, the temptations of my past Please don't let me disgrace, where my devotion lays Now that I know the truth, now that it's no excuse Keeping me from your love, what was I thinking of? Holding me from your love, what was I thinking of? You are my peace of mind, that old me is left behind You are my peace of mind, that old me is left behind He says it's impossible, but I know it's possible He says it's improbable, but I know it's tangeable He says it's not grabbable, but I know it's haveable Cuz anything's possible, oh anything is possible Please come free my mind, please come meet my mind Can you see my mind, oh Won't you come free my mind? Oh I know it's possible Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything, yeeey Anything, anything, anything, anything, yeeey Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything, yeeey Oh free! Free, free, free your mind Free, free your mind... free, free your mind Free, free, free, free your mind Oh, it's so possible, oh it's so possible I'm telling you it's possible, I'm telling you it's possible Free, free... free, free... free, free... get free now Free, free... free, free, free, free... free, free You're my peace of mind, that old me is left behind You're my peace of mind, you're my peace of mind He's my peace of mind, he's my peace of mind He's my peace of mind, he's my peace of mind What a joy it is to be alive To get another chance, yeah Everyday's another chance To get it right this time Everyday's another chance Oh what a merciful, merciful, merciful God Oh what a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful God [Repeat till fade]
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